So last night was the rather inauspicious relaunch of louderJAM. Light turnout, low energy and some of the most random MFs on the open mic. WTF?!?! The Impossible Home excerpt was interesting if a little sloppy in its adaptation to a different space. Reminded me somewhat of the erotica reading a few years back at Spy, though not as polished. Curious what the whole production looked like. All in all, it bodes well for future collaborative projects. (Side note: Why is Sabrina so ridiculously talented? Beyond the poetry, she sings, dances and speaks Spanish like it was her native tongue! Is that fair?) Our features were a lot of fun but the audience was too thin to really keep the energy amped. Tough night but they all put on a good show. It'll take some time to make the format work but I'm more commited to it this time around.

This journal thing is starting to get weird as more and more people are letting me know they read it. Couple of people have even referenced stuff from here in their own journals! Trying to blank that out while remaining honest is tough. I approach this thing more for myself and try to ignore the fact that I know certain people read it. It's almost like a diary that you know someone's sneaking a peek into but you keep writing in it anyway. So exhibitionistic!

On that note, allow me to address the rumor of the existence of a "banned list" at 13. The only person actually banned from 13 (on Mondays, at least) is Orion for some...ah...inappropriate activity in the stairwell back in 1998. And he was banned by the owner, not me, though he was on thin ice at that point anyway. Other than that, there ARE people that aren't particularly welcome based on things they may have said or done in the past, to me or those I care about. I'm very much a fuck with my friends, fuck with me kind of person so I imagine some of these people would be surprised to know they fall in the persona non grata category. At the least, they'll never have the opportunity of featuring at 13 while I'm still running things. Much as I'd like to name some names (and you know you wanna hear some) I'm not quite THAT petty.

I am extremely tired, though, and ready to go home.

Today's web site: http://www.justfood.org/html/csa_home.html, because the little things add up.